sweetest drug

thank you! =)

2009-07-06T20:10:00.000-07:00

a million thanks to Pink Notes Diary for giving me these blog awards. =)

i wanna share these recognitions to my friends' blogs, and blogs which i came across with and got me stucked in their cyber homes. here is the list of the best online ramblers i've hopped into:

Ihasta La Vista Mi Amor
no se llevan bien
fUcko
PDOOX
Darwin's Blog
Hoowanted
~_~feel free~_~
Bass Lines
mOrEnA's jOurNaL
A Mysterious Life

It'll be very much of a pleasure if you'd grab and post these awards in your respective homes. You may pass this recognition to different bloggers or your virtual friends who you think deserves it too. Enjoy! =)

ahu-ahu virus!

2009-07-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

I'm soo stressed out and over-fatigued with my never-ending "ahu-ahu".
I can hardly sleep at night, it's giving me a hard time finishing my works and tasks each day, makes my body weaker and weaker. AYOKO NA! please take it! huhuhuhuhuhu.

Thanks to the "power trio" for their moral support! grabe. so much talaga ang update nila when i was nearly bed-ridden.

*June 26
Nagluya diay ka..pgtake ug med lang huh. tsktsktsk.. [rocky,1:05pm]

Don't compromise ur health oi! Kaon pgud dghan. Tpos tke a deep rest. Set asyd sa mga worries. [rocky,2:55pm]

Musta na feeling nimo?ok na? [rocky,7:06pm]

Dili pa japon ka ok?hmmmmm.laag rai kulang ana lang..hehe [rocky,9:01pm]

*June 29
ga?musta nmn ka? ayo nka? [raymond,8:37pm]

ayooooooo. ayo na c lanie? [rocky, 6:59am]

dili sa mglaag ha. puyo dira. ayp na. [rocky,5:56pm]

*June 30
ga? wla jpon ka naayo? inom lng gud ug tambal..ayaw sa laag relax sa dira ga..maayo ra lage ka.. [raymond,3:13pm ]

msta namn among miga lanie? [glen, 5:15pm]

ga?get well soon ha.. [glen, 11:07pm]

*July 1
ga, ayaw sa pgpinutong huh, humok sa ang ulo para dali raka maau.^^, [glen, 3;10pm]

lang..pgtarong pagud...pacheck-up na.karon na. lagota ui. inom dghan tubig. [rocky, 6:14pm]
*July 2
inom2 pud lge ug tambal. unya kaon tarong dli mgbilar mgrelax dli hagoon ang sarili kaon dghan gulay prutas..gahig pug ulo.tumana rgud q lang maskin kron lng.. [rocky, 2:15pm]

tulog nata ha, ayw na pgtx2 dra, pgsign-off na sa imong mga fans..sugod ugma sau nka ma2log, bwal sa ang mall. tpos tumana daun kad2ng gitxt nq knina..pg dpa gni ka maulian, wa nq choice..ipaubaya n tka kai bro..btaw lai ampingi jud na imung self..kpital nimu nah..saon nlng q..ganahan pd o..bitaw saon nlng ang power trio..ang tribo akro..kng wla ka..hehehe [rocky,12:08am]
*July 4
lang!!! ayoooooooooooooooo nka?huhuhu [rocky,8:15pm]

lang...lai...laag nlng diri beh..huhuhuhu [rocky,9:12pm]

porbida! ngpaulan pud cguro ka noh. ayay! pabaya njud akong miga bah. [dho,11:18pm]

cge2..aunod nlng ka anhi. puhon2. amping diha ha..kusion tah jud kah bah f dli pka maayo! hehehe [dho, 11:25pm]

COMDDAP Davao Expo 2009

2009-06-24T23:55:00.001-07:00

Where the highest mountain in the land rises over the vast rich plains of Davao, where the king of Philippine birds soar over his domain, the giant of all Philippine I.T. shows once more unfolds its latest event. It's COMDDAP Davao 2009 - the biggest I.T. expo held regularly in the South.

The event will showcase tech updates, tech dealers, business exhibits and our most awaited Adobe Seminar series. As what our instructor/class adviser[Sir Ryan David Pillerin] told us [BSIT Major in Multimedia], the Adobe Company rarely conduct/offers such workshops in the Philippines, most unlikely here in Davao. The said seminars consists of four sessions:
Dreamweaver CS4
Contribute CS4
Flash CS4
Fireworks CS4
The registration fee per session is Php480. Sir P told us that we will be joining only the last two workshops since it is more complicated to study at and ofcourse, considering the financial matters.

***FIREWORKS
Fireworks CS4 is a hybrid imaging and rapid-prototyping application with an enhanced toolset and a greater
variety of options. The Fireworks CS4 Seminar demonstrates how to navigate and customize the workspace in this design and production hub, as well as provides a primer on the array of graphics that can be created and combined in Fireworks, including bitmap and vector art, layered Photoshop and Illustrator files, and files in the native Fireworks format, enhanced PNG.
It demonstrates creative uses of text, animation and effects. It discusses how to generate optimized web graphics as well as entire interactive prototypes based on CSS, HTML, PDF, and AIR. This seminar is intended for those who are new to Fireworks or who are seeking insights into the techniques made possible by the latest version.
***FLASH
Flash is a powerful multimedia creation tool that can be used to build simple animations, full-featured applications and everything in between. The Flash CS4 Seminar offers new Flash users a thorough explanation of the interface, tools, and techniques at the heart of any project. It will show participants how to use the latest iteration of the Flash drawing tools and timeline, work with text and symbols, and create tweens and other simple animations. It also explores multimedia elements like bitmap graphics, sound and video. He shows how to use ActionScript 3.0 to add interactivity to Flash projects, discusses integration with other Adobe applications, and more.

The course outline/description for the Adobe Seminar Series is to be conducted by Boyett Pinlac, President, Dreams and Visions Interactive Inc. (DVI)- and Adobe Gold Partner. The expo will run from July 2-4, 2009 at the Cattleya Function Room, Apo View Hotel, Davao City.
CLICK HERE FOR THE REGISTRATION FORM!
[Brief Info]In 1997, the manufacturing sector was integrated in COMDDAP mambership, making the association a better and more diverse representation of the IT sector, and thus the new name, COMPUTER MANUFACTURERS, DISTRIBUTORS AND DEALERS ASSOCIATION OF THE PHILIPPINES.

Gasol: second idol!

2009-06-21T02:37:00.000-07:00

Wearing jersey #16, Pau Gasol became the first Spaniard to win a championship title in the recent NBA 2oo9 Finals joining the hit Los Angeles Lakers team. Phil got him from the Memphis Grizzlies trading his younger brother Marc. They had a wonderful tandem or hook-up with my number one Kobe Bryant which was obvious especially in Game 2, where Gasol's lay-up shot did the overtime which made them win. I really like this guy's intensity during games. I mean, he may not rule every game or score powerful shots but he definitely have his heart on the team. This 7ft power forward/center is really a key addition to the Lakers.

officer-on-duty

2009-04-03T19:57:00.000-07:00

wow. it's been almost a month since my last post.
i'm currently at school, assisting the ITE admin for the summer class enrollment. freshmen ranting, persuading and bragging you to put them on their desired section, irregular studs being impatient, noisy other freshies, latecomer co-officers (no offense guys! hahahaha). now here starts the heavy duties and responsibilities as an ITE Program officer. heck! LOL. but really, it's fun. no sweat!

for the first semestral enrollment, we'll be here again to assist and give our heartfelt service to you our fellow UIC-ITE students. (char. nangangampanya?LOL)
just approach us. we'll be wearing this shirt designed by our legislator, yamato:

---to be continued.

bye, FM.

2009-03-10T00:07:00.000-07:00

"3 stars and a sun, in one sky, so high, I live and die, and die will I for my Motherland."

"I use my pen to drop science and use inkblots and stains to erase the remaining pain."

"The world's cursed with methods so perverse. Watch the universe in reverse.

"Thoughts would emerge everytime I get the urge to write on a pad all the thoughts. We write the right rhymes so don't try to bite mine."

FrancisM, Kiko, The Man from Manila, or the Master Rapper as what people know him, died at age 44 last midnoon of March 6, 2009 after being diagnosed with acute myelogenous leukemia for seven months. A rapper, songwriter, producer, actor, breakdancer, director, and photographer, he was considered a legend in the Philippine Entertainment Industry particularly in music. He is highly respected in the rap scene, pioneered the merging of rap with pinoy rock and was a great influence to all other Filipino artists in that genre as well. FM's death is really a big loss to the industry. The Philippine government just announced that FM will be posthumuosly awarded the National Medal of Merit, for his contributions in promoting patriotism through music and even to his clothing line as well. should be.
condolences to FM's family. you may be gone physically, but in our hearts, you'll forever be alive. =)

**for all you guys out there who want to relive the memories [photos, vid] of francis m, vist his site: francismagalona.multiply.com

UNTITLED.

2009-03-06T09:22:00.000-08:00

below is my poem personally written in the four walls of the Physics Lab last i-can't-remember-the-exact-date. LOL.
this is by far the first time that i hardly find a suiting title for my work.
can somebody help me for my poem's title?
any suggestions?...
::

are you aware?
do you even care?
i've been a mess,
so sick and distressed.

it was a mistake
letting you go.
pushing you away.
waving goodbye.
wish i didn't utter such lies.
from this young, innocent
to a weakling, manipulative fool

how could you love me
with so much sincerity?
when all i did was
to treat you so badly?

you were determined.
i was uncertain.
you stood up and stayed.
i saw, and nothing i did.

are you aware?
do you even care?
you've been blinded
stupid and obsessed.

FULL BLAST!

2009-03-01T18:50:00.000-08:00

whew! last week was soooo much fun. t'was twice much enjoyable than i thought. i was uber sagad to the bones HAPEE =) =) =). so many reasons to celebrate. party. get wasted? [lol.hindi na.hehe]. party and party! =) and i'd like to enumerate 'em. [yabang ano? walang papalag, blog ko toh! (evil laugh)]
*again, JOCYLOU P. CORAJE, RN
*DREAMS party landslide[almost]
*BSIT-2A landed the 2nd place in the Speech Choir 'o9 with a score of 9o.66%
*wala akong bagsak dis term. weeeeeee!
*the tiring, stressful week has ENDED! =)
*imissmySUPERFRIENDS BIIIIIGtime.
and so it all boil down to:
C.E.L.E.B.R.A.T.I.O.N! =)
it all started saturday aftie. i went out with rocky. the musikahan festive in the city had its finale yesterday so the place was kinda boring but we still HAD FUN. we always have fun when were together anyway. LOL! :D
i don't wanna put everything into detail basta it was sunday morning na when we went home. i rode a bus to davao. had to go to rynie's house and finish our paperworx in english. but just when i arrived at exactly 1oam, SUPERFRIENDS bombarded me with text messages saying we're having a get-together. crap, i'm effing tired but i just can't resist. i miss them so so so much. i haven't seen them for a month. it's always rocky and rocky. grrrrrr. this time, i'll be with THEM. funny thing is, when i hopped in the bus again, this time going to tagum, i realized i left my wallet. i only brought with me my coin purse. the ticket costed 72php and surprisingly, my money was exactly just as such! whoooa! Oh God, You do really want me to go. hehehehe
venue? Elena's Inland Resort. so what's this gathering all about? it was not just celebrating good times but it's more of the thought that we all miss each other super much and we have that urge- we have to see each other now and it's like there's no tomorrow. LOL. dba mas exciting pag unplanned? weeeeeeee! ^.^
the night was full of silly stories, laughs, girl talk ofcourse, and it's good to know that they're all happy. seeing their smiles and giggles, hearing their i'm-over-it dramas, their rants over their boyfriends, always make me feel relieved.
we went home early. t'was 12mid when we parted ways. we wanted to party @ eyeball disco house but since 3 of us were restricted by their parents, we decided to just resume everything by saturday. wow. gimik just ended, another gimik set.
how i wish i could freeze these moments. happy times. no worries. off with problems. away with the anxieties. big grin. chillax. havin a taste of the good life. uplifting. savor good memories with the best people in the whole world. sigh.
niwei, how did i get back without a single penny in hand? i told you, with them, nothing's to worry about. came home safe and sound. =)

NO MORE HIDING!

2009-02-27T08:06:00.000-08:00

i just discovered this cooooool site.

the YAHOO MESSENGER INVI DETECTOR! yes, you read that right. as the name says, it detects invisible YM users. all you have to do is key in the email address of that person you wanna detect. wait for the loading and then voila! the [real] status of that ym address will be displayed.
no more hiding folks! =)

FOR HER.

2009-02-20T06:00:00.000-08:00

today was a very not-so-good day for me. i've been again, overruled by laziness. i've done nothing productive. really. i just crawled into bed. slept. ate. slept. read. surf for nonsense things. hadn't even taken a look at my unfinished paperworks. why melai why? why so lazy? is it because your so drained each and every day for the past few weeks? maybe the weather made you sluggish? or is it just because your becoming EMO again? thinking about those dramas, inviting the negative thoughts which makes you drown, feel empty, sick, distressed, resent, stuck, numb, dysfunctional and all? waaaaah. emo.emo.emo!

but despite these nega thingies, this day has been very special not for me but some people, some VIPs of my life.
to start off, it's my mother's birthday. she's turning 57 now. she's getting old, really. but she's still working. i guess she really loves her job. i wanna go home, or to wherever she is but i just can't. my weekend is fully booked- all for school events. ugh. i'm so body and brain-drained. i just wish her a hapee hapee birthday! =)
second, my dear superfriend, jocylou passed the november 2oo8 nursing licensure exam! she's now a certified RN. how's that? good for them. it's really their day.
and so, i have to be happy. for them.

Rihanna Herpes Rumor

2009-02-12T20:55:00.000-08:00

Did Rihanna give Chris Brown Herpes? Is this the reason for the high-profile couple's breakup and recent incident of violence leading to Brown's arrest? I really don't believe this. The rumors sweeping the Internet are lacking credibility, but that hasn't stopped some gossip sites from reporting on them.
Media takeout has done a good job of reporting on the incident Sunday night before the Grammy's in which they both cancelled their appearances at the last minute. Turns out the reason was for alleged domestic violence in which Chris brown allegedly hit Robyn Fenty, whose stage name is Rihanna herself.
But herpes? The bottom line, they say is the rumor is FALSE as they attempt to set the record straight:
"Chris did not punch Rihanna in her face because she gave him herpes. This rumor is floating around the net and it’s A LIE. Chris saw the cold sore just like the rest of us weeks ago – and it didn’t stop him from messing with her. This story is nothing to joke about. Domestic violence is a serious subject, and Chris Brown is facing serious charges – we shouldn’t make up fake ish about this situation ."

But others continue to report on the gossip which has even prompted mentions on talk radio stations in the country. Once a genie gets out of a bottle, it is hard to put her back. But then again, the wild rumors appear to have no basis in provable fact. People cite unnamed sources and rumor feeds rumor. Therefore, Right Celebrity believes that Rihanna did not give Chris Brown herpes or any other STD. The true facts of the case will become known in time so let’s all wait for them.

KOBE FEVER FOREVER! =)

2009-02-11T16:35:00.000-08:00

With a 105-98 victory over the Oklahoma City Thunder last Tuesday night, Kobe Bryant set his record of being the youngest NBA player to reach 23,000 points in just a span of 3o years. Kobe has been considered as one of the legends in the NBA.
He was just back from their concluded 6-0 trip wins with the Boston Celtics and Cleveland Cavaliers. How's that folks? See how uber great he is. The very best MVP [MOST VALUABLE PLAYER] there is.

He's really my idol!
iloveyouKOBE! hehehehehe. =)

WORK RIGHT AT YOUR HOME! =)

2009-02-01T18:55:00.000-08:00

10 Companies Hiring for Work from Home

Can you imagine how simple your life would be if you never had to drive to work? If you have the self-discipline to work from home, the right opportunity could help you get back those commute hours and gain some extra time each day to do whatever you want.

Wondering where to start? Here are 10 companies hiring for work from home right now:

1. Alpine Access
Website: www.alpineaccess.com
Job Title: Customer care professional

This forward-thinking company plans to hire 1,200 new employees in the first three months of 2009. "We look for people who are self-motivated, self-reliant problem solvers who have a strong work ethic," says Remi Killeen, Recruitment Manager at Alpine Access. Besides offering the flexibility to work from home, Alpine Access, a virtual call center, provides health-care benefits, 401K, flexible work schedules and opportunities to grow. Each worker is an actual company employee with regular work hours and assignments.

2. HireMyMom.com
Website: www.hiremymom.com
Job Titles: Virtual assistant, professional blogger

HireMyMom.com is a Web-based job service designed especially for professional working mothers. Founder and President Lesley Spencer Pyle says the two most popular positions HireMyMom.com fills are professional blogger and virtual assistant. Bloggers write about their employer's company, products, or services, often in response to user inquiries or industry discussion. They use specific "keywords" in their responses to get favorable Web search engine rankings. A virtual assistant is a professional office administrative assistant who can work from anywhere.

3. Sylvan Online
Website: www.sylvan.com
Job Title: On-line certified teacher

Do you have experience teaching but aren't interested in managing an entire classroom? Sylvan Online may work for you. It's a Web-based tutoring service that seeks certified teachers to tutor various subjects and levels. Job requirements include a current teaching certificate, a Windows-based PC and high-speed Internet access. Sylvan offers paid training on-line and opportunities range from 8 to 29 hours per week.

4. National Shopping Service
Website: www.nationalshoppingservice.com
Job Title: Mystery shopper/researcher

Do you love to shop? Do you like to share your opinion? You can make money doing both. A mystery shopper earns perks or a paycheck for helping companies learn about their products and customer service. Paycheck amounts range from "$5.00 to $25.00 for a 15- to 60-minute engagement," says Matt Wozniak, president and CEO of National Shopping Service. "The vast majority of mystery shoppers do not mystery shop for a living, although we have had a few earning over $40,000 a year. It's a great way to pick up a free pizza on your way to get the kids from soccer or get some free gasoline."

5. oDesk
Website: www.oDesk.com
Job Title: Various professionals

If you have experience in software development, Web design, language translation and other computer-based careers, oDesk can help you get hired for work at home. Recently featured on "Good Morning America," oDesk lets job seekers apply for contract jobs, large and small. Job seekers search job listings which include the job requirements, pay and estimated time commitments. "Our business has three components -- hire, manage and pay," says Gary Swart, CEO of oDesk. Plus, you don't have to submit invoices for your contract work, which saves time.

6. Working Solutions
Website: www.workingsolutions.com
Job Title: Transcriptionist, customer service representative

Are you a speedy and accurate typist? You might be interested in a contract position as a transcriptionist, someone who types down information from a recording, live reading, or conversation. Established in 1996, Working Solutions hires independent contract agents for various transcription and customer service assignments. You can earn up to $30 an hour if you have the right skill-set and experience.

7. Language Lab
Website: www.languagelab.com
Job Title: Teacher, actor, customer service representative

The best way to learn a language is to go someplace where you can practice with native speakers. Why not travel via the World Wide Web? Using a computer and Internet connection, Language Lab lets at-home students visit "English Town," a virtual city where teachers help them learn English as a second language. Language Lab is looking to hire more English teachers. Shiv Rajendran, director of operations at Language Lab, says, "Teachers need to be native English speakers, Celta or Delta certified with five years of teaching experience." Celta and Delta certifications are not college degrees, but post-high school certifications. The company also plans to hire actors and part-time customer service reps.

8. 1-800-FLOWERS
Website: www.1800flowers.com
Job Title: Customer service representative

If you have a phone headset, a way with people and, hopefully, a love of flowers, consider working for the long-established 1-800-FLOWERS. The company expects to hire temporary, full-time customer service representatives this year. It even promises competitive hourly rates plus a bonus at the end of the temporary assignment.

9. Aetna
Website: www.aetna.com
Job Title: Account manager, negotiator, customer service representative, nurse and more

From nurses to contract negotiators to account managers, Aetna is a nationwide company with a variety of telework-friendly jobs to offer. Whether you are medically savvy or are simply good with people on the phone, you could find a position with this reputable company that offers benefits and a possibility of a bonus. Even better, Aetna has been ranked 48th by BusinessWeek in its 2008 "Best Places to Launch a Career."

10. Elance
Website: www.elance.com
Job Title: Legal, Web design, engineering, admin, marketing or writing professional

Elance creates a space where skilled professionals and would-be employers can bargain, haggle and place competitive bids for all sorts of projects. Elance works well for people who can provide video production, Web design, software engineering and other home-office-friendly services. If you have a computer-based skill, get yourself onto Elance.com and let the opportunities start rolling in. Plus, Elance does its best to ensure that the employers on their site are trustworthy and pay on time. And, employers rate workers so, the better work you provide, the better your chance of getting more gigs.

girl talk.

2009-01-04T04:22:00.000-08:00

i xoo love girl talks. [especially with gladys]
from toys to boys. we have shared and are sharing everything!
but we've matured now. i mean the talks. it's more of our future lives; being succesful and all that stuff.
last december 25, we had a beach outing @ kupiat.
[or we call it "outing na pampawala sa hang-over"].
wherein we had yet not another girl talk. hehe.
and here goes our "stolen daw" na pix courtesy of sarah.

anyway, new year na pala ano. i don't feel it that much.
im not expecting anything for this year. i had a bad 2oo8.
however i have resolutions [ok, i don't really believe in such so better call it 'restrictions'? LOL. i'll try to discipline myself.]
there are lots of 'em and they boil down into:
GETTING BACK MY OLD SELF.
it's pretty hard, because for the past 4 years, i've been so much into "that" life, beliefs, motives and attitude. but because it got worse, and i think i've had enough of it and im feeling kinda tired, i'm determined to go back..to the old me. [well not exactly the old me. just 90% maybe.] plus, i'm so thankful that rocky is more than willing to help me. he's been wanting this. im so glad that he never left and will never leave. [iba ka talaga! and yes you're right. what we had and what we are is the BEST. so cheers to us!]
so, maybe i'll just give myself and you guys a biiiig GOOD LUCK for the year of the ox! have a hapee 2oo9! =)

addicted to GG

2008-11-18T00:58:00.000-08:00

"Good morning Upper East Siders! Gossip Girl here. Your one and only source into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite."

This show is my latest craving. Yep, you heard that right. Gossip Girl or GG. Too bad we don't have cable connection at home so Im left with no choice but to wait for dvd release and surf the net for video streamings. sigh.
So what's with this show anyway?
hmmmmm. i can hardly put it into words. basta everytime i watch it, i crave for more. the casts, the soundtracks, the quotes, each and every episode is just so, so right. i'm not a critic but in my own frame of reference, it's perfectly directed and produced. well ofcourse with my age, i can definitely relate cause the story revolves around the young, teenage lives. Plus! the clothes are great- be it Blair's, Serena's, Little J's, or Lily's. I have learned so much in this show. I even applied some episodes or scenes in my real-life situations! Even the lines that strucked me, especially the ones Queen Bee quotes. Each scene, each episode is just exciting as watching it the first time.
Before, I was just the only one who's into it in my circle. But because I wanted somebody to discuss it with, I lend my complete GG pilot episode dvd to my superfriends and guess what? They are now giggling and craving for the season 2! =)
How's that for a review? hehe.
Anyway, because of so much love [or shall I say addiction?LOL] for the show, I posted it here but honestly I'm having a hard time describing it. I guess the best words are: "A must-see."

"And who am I? That's one secret I'll never tell.
You know you love me.
xOxO,
gossip girl."

-see? memorize pa talaga. hehehe. =)

WANTED!

2008-07-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

its been a month[? i think] since i watched this movie..and up to now,, i haven't moved on. i just can't get enough of it! it's like a virus, infecting my system. it's awesome [ofcourse it stars AJ]. a must-see.

2008-04-30T03:29:00.000-07:00

thirteen is to ONE

2008-04-13T01:37:00.001-07:00

zup?

2008-04-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

it's summer!!! im soo craving for beach and beach and beach! grrrrrrrr.

im havin summer classes from apr7-may16.

gawd. im gon' miss the happenings back in my hometown! but it's ok coz on the brighter side, i believe i will really learn a lot this summer. no, not a lot but BIG.hehe I have two subjects: Digital Circuits and Computer Organization. Plus the proffesors are great-Sir Yamit and Engr. Laud. Good for me. hehehe. :D

Anyway, my upcoming birthday is what bugs my mind these days. it'll be my debut in a month from now! I'm really pressured because my friends [i'm reffering to Davao friends] are really expecting for a celebration but we're financially unstable [mother told me]. So right now, Im starting not to expect much on that day. All I want is to be with the most treasured persons in my life..my friends..my supahfriends in Anibs, my IT buddies, and my hiskul peers. For my birthday, my wish will not be something for myself, but for my family. Why? Simply because I have caused a lot of pain to them, and we have really gone through dramatic situations recently. sigh.

I have so much to encode here but I think I'l just keep it to myself for private reasons. hehe.

I'l just end this with the quote;

"The more bitter the desert experience, the sweeter the water of the oasis."

-our daily bread.

God bless! :)

MARCH 18, 2008 [of mishaps and misfortunes]

2008-03-18T05:08:00.000-07:00

I’d really mark this day on the calendar. It was a day of mishaps. An escapade of mishaps with Ate Gypsy, Jerdon and Roldan. As in super malas na day.
*9am
To start off, I came 30minutes late in my English exams. After that was our supposed CProg1 exam but since conflict siya with the CHST subject, we told Sir Roy na we’ll take CProg1 tomorrow. Buti nalang din pumayag si Sir, kasi the main reason din why we’d excuse ourselves was to finish our CHST final project. hell yea.
*10am
Then off we went to Clickerz Netcafe @ Malvar. Gawd, the system units were so malfunctioning…tpos ung unit ko pa, wlang office software! Grrrrr. But in fairness, ate gypsy and me still managed to have chitchat [girls talaga…]. T’was around 11am and Roldan told us that the deadliest deadline for that f*ing project will be @ 12noon-no exemptions. Having so little time, so much to do and so undesirable sira-sirang units, I suggested that we’d transfer.
*11am
We started at exactly 11:35 sa isang netcafe sumwer in Gov. Duterte street. [Yea, inabot kami ng ganun katagal kc we had to find a netcafe which has low cost in colored printing]. And take note: we have Math exams by 1-2pm and Psychology at 2-3pm. Thus, we weren’t able to take our lunch. [wla pud mi ngbfast. The last food we ate was pinya. Kumain kmi ni ate gypsy sa kilid-kilid. LOLx]
12nn…1pm…2pm...and we weren’t finished yet. It wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. Kadami pang pasikot2 and kaartehan with the formatting. Duh.
*3pm
After the editing and printing, pa-book bind naman. [yea, ipasoft bound pa talaga xa.] Then when we’re about to go to school, I noticed my id’s missin! Sling nalang naiwan. At that moment, all I could think of was s**t, f**k, damn. Super tanga talaga ng id. Since it’s too late in the aftie na, Roldan and Jerdon went ahead to pass the freakin f***in project. Meanwhile, it was really so nice of Ate Gypsy because she accompanied me back to where we went, just to find my super stupid id. Buti nalang, we found it sa netcafe..nagpaiwan pala si id doon [sigh]. To freshen up ourselves and lighten up our moods, we bought coke float, burger and fries @ Mcdo, then off we went to school. As we rode the tricycle, we ate our food as if it’s our first time. We were really hungry that we didn’t even bother to fix ourselves. It’s like we hadn’t eaten for ages. LOLx. But atlast, we’re done diba.
*4pm
When we came at Rm305, the boys were able to take the Math exam but Ate and me decided to have it tomorrow for we only have 20 minutes left [di nmn kmi genius para matapos within 20minutes noh]. Anyway, I felt sorry for Ate coz she has Filipino exam @ 9am tomorrow. How will she take it when the Math exam will be at Annex? Sigh. To add insult to injury, Roldan told us that the deadline of the f***in project was anytime today-meaning until midnight.
GRRRRRRR! We could’ve taken the CProg, Math and Psych exams! Wala na sana kaming problema ngaun. B***s**t! F***!

maswerteng lucky. :D

2008-03-17T05:55:00.000-07:00

waaaaah! last day of exam n pla tomz..
the 2nd sem was really a lucky one for me. y?
let's start off sa family. first, i had a pamangkin na.. born on oct.31. and she really brings joy to our family and everything went so well sa amin the past few months..

2nd, wiv friends. my relationship wiv my neiborhood friends became stronger. we're getting mature na and we value each other more. iloveyou girls! bigtime. :)
wiv my college buddies nmn, nging mas closer rin kmi, although kmi nlng ni gypsy ang classmates, hndi nmn nmin nkakalimutan ang isa't isa.

3rd, wiv my boyfriend. well..i decided to became serious na wiv him since december. it's been 7 months n kc dat i just treated him unhumanly[take note: i'm also literally speaking]. and he never gave up on me. kea eto c melai, fell once again. we never had a big fight..and things between us are really going smoothly well. mg1yr n kmi nxt month. truly LOVE is sweeter the second time around. [naks!]

4th, sa skul.i really consider myself lucky for the 2nd sem of academic year o7-o8 @ UIC.
sa class sked ko pa lng na 8.3oam ang pinaka-early..then there's the teachers na halos lahat talaga soooobrang ok.
*to mam ferry na pinayagan ako d mg-attend ng p.e. nyt tpos nggrade pa sa amin ng 100% sa finals exam. ok pa jud kabonjing2! hehe. thnx mam. i'l mishue tlga mam.

*to sir roy na sobrang considerate sa amin. sir a million thank you talaga sa patience mo. i salute you sir! pagaling ka po.

*to mam enobio na kahit parating galit dhil sa absences ko at ng klase, my tiwala prin xa and d nia ako binagsak. mam, dko kakayanin ung cum laude na sinasabi mu. hehe.

*to mam de guzman, na inexempt ako ngaun sa finals. wooohooo! salamat ng marami mam.

*to mam pelegrino, sir peter, mam ranalan and ok fyn ky sir pillerin narin. salamat at hindi nio po ako binagsak nung 1st and 2nd sem. :)

and lastly, nitong signing of clearance pa, andami kong kulang na slips pero pinirmahan parin ako ng legis, osad and program officers. kea hindi ako nkagastos pa para bumili ng goods. thank you friendships! [evil laugh]

bago ko nga pala mkalimutan, salamat ng marami kay ate gypsy. siya kasi ang kasa-kasama ko lage throughout the 2nd sem. thick and thin yan. aylabyu ate!

at xempre sa section ko, section E, na inakala ng lahat na reject daw, un pala pinakamagandang section sa lahat. bleh!!!

GOODLUCK sa lecheng comprehensive exam natin! LOLx.

L-O-V-E month!^^

2008-02-04T19:32:00.000-08:00

wheeew! time's running soooo fast. it's a year na pla since i started blogging. can't remember the exact date though but im sure its in the 2nd month. ;)
the start of this month has been so much pain in the ass. LOLx.
last feb o2, we had our ROTC Tactical Inspection..It was so much tiring yet I had a lot of fun. Im happy that ROTC days are over..but im a bit upset because Im gonna miss the people..my ALPHA1 platoon..fellow cadettes..the officers..and the soldiers. waaaah. As of this moment we're in the lead..we got a rating of 95.59%. not bad,ayt?^^
one of these days..Im definitely gonna post our pictures here.^^ ALL HAIL to UIC-ROTC batch o7-o8! wooohooooo!
i think this month would be a hectic one for me. Midterm exams are gonna be on feb o6-o8[that's tomorrow!] and I still haven't studied any of my lessons yet. UIC-ITE Festival will be on feb 11-12. then there's the SSG and Program Officers Election on feb 21-22 inwhich Im gonna be an Election Inspector, students' days on feb.13-15, club fair on feb.15, and the last one--the most awaited PE NIGHT on feb29! yey!^^
niwei..heart's day is coming in a week now..and i just had my pre-valentine date with my guy so I maybe out with my buddies that day. this month's a wack. really crazy yet lots of love sharing!
to the people I value and I cherish most: ILOVEYOUSOMUCH. bigtime! (smooches)

i want a NEW me!

2008-01-15T23:10:00.000-08:00

it's the 16th of my 365 days journey with life for the year 2oo8.
they say this year's a lucky one. hmmmm. i do hope so.
so..what's in store for me?
oh! we'll [me and rocky] be havin our FIRST anniversary this april o9! that is ofcourse..if kami pa by that time. sigh.
and my debut by may o9! woohooo! as if I have plans noh. haha. super wala tlga. My mind is out of that. Basta my most valued people MUST be there. ano pah? hmmmm. can't think of any as of now..hehe.
I am just happy that I made it through this year with less worries and problems. :)
Have a lucky o8 everyone! :)

CIN party! 12.27.o7

2008-01-15T22:28:00.000-08:00

It was a very fun day of partying..swimming..drinking..chika galore..and camwhoring..the Chip-in ni (CIN)parteeey! yey! ^^ Aside from the CIN members ofcourse, I was with my best buds dhelz and gladz..syne wasn't able to come with us for some reasons I don't know. lolx.Well..we took pictures there at Bern Berioso Beach Resort, where the annual party was held..and here are some! Enjoy! :D

me and gladz..^^

bestest buds. :)

fuck all bitches mode. haha! =p

the people behind CIN. :)

let's drink to that!

havin a great time. :)

a minute of limelight. =P

2007-11-14T01:49:00.000-08:00

well. well. well.
i had a very quite nice and naughty (i cudnt think of d ryt term for it!errr) afternoon. (evil laugh)
okeii..it all started after math class.
2pm..i went to SM to meet my supah friend mon..and at the same time, watch anne's dance contest (t'was nurses week event).
we didn't get to see anne's number but it's alright coz i had my pizza cravings ended.
we (me and mon) ate at greenwich. (hawaiian nanaman. haha)
anne's costume? awesome. kewl. grool. hehe.
t'was 10 minutes to 4 when i realized i had to go back to school for the OSAD (that's our discipline admin) orientation (not another boring assembly. duh.)
mon came with me coz he had to borrow books..so before going to the auditorium(where the assembly was held), we went to the library..it took us an hour i guess?lol. about 10minutes.
then up to the 5th floor, auditorium.
as we entered, the students were looking at us..as if we're major interruption of what was goin' on in there. well...that could possibly be coz they were silent..and the OSAD dean was at the centerstage. i was like looking for caren, ivy, rhynie and gypsy (the gang.hehe)for me to have a sit..and i thought that i was just 10-15 minutes late. but then it strucked me when we (mon and me again) were recognized by the dean for being late..the assembly's gonna end na pala (perfect timing!)..and she thought that we came in just to get attendance slips (but oh yea, she was right!haha!). We were really emphasized..she told the secretary to remember our faces so we will not be given slips..(as in she spoke with microphones on!ryt from the stage!)..so all eyes were on us.. Mon had no idea what was goin on...so he just enjoyed it..he loves crowd you know..suuuuuper haba ng hair namin dai..lol! nakatitig sa inyo lahat. imagine dat? we were in the LIMELIGHT baby...lol
It was not that bad at all.. i was not regretful that i didn't get slips because what could be more important and fun for me than seeing/being with my bestest friends..(and i rily missed mon so much.) and besides, that freakin' attendance slip would only cost a bar of soap, or a kilo of sugar..that's 5opesos. so cheap. (evil laugh again) yea..because during clearance signing..incomplete slips are replaced with these goods. (oooooowkei laaaaaaaang!hehehehehe)
then we happily walked out..like wala lng!hihi
tpos we realized..we left something..real important..
cellphone? no.
wallet? nope.
book? nah-uh.
hanky? over.
its the magazines! my ever beloved candy mags! left in the heartstrings saleslady mon had just became friends with! (yaah..just that afternoon..they became "fc" when mon was waiting for me..at the bench ryt beside heartstrings stall. whatever)
indeed..it's an uh-oh nicey-nawty afternoon.

countdown to SEMBREAK.

2007-10-02T19:01:00.000-07:00

Its exactly 10days to go before our much awaited and anticipated SEMBREAK!! yey! yey! giggles*

I can't wait to have my rest. laag2 galore and stuff. Il be at my hometown the whooooole month. Gawd..i don't wanna be stuck there again..id just would like to have uhmmmm...1 and a half week of vacation there. But i have no choice at all. My parents won't allow me to go here in Davao before classes start. heck!

Anyway..much of that blabbering. The thing is..schooldays are out...break's fast approaching! weeeeeeeeh^^

the ping pong song

2007-09-03T02:10:00.000-07:00

"do you know what it feels like..luvin someone that's in a rush to throw you away?"

hmmmm. it's soo hurtin..ayt?
This song distracts me so much. Its bothering me for like days now. It speaks of GOODBYEs; which I, really HATE. There are a lot of changes in my daily routine right now that I still can't accept. I haven't moved on yet. And it's soo hard for me. It's killing me each and every second of the day.

First is the end of the Killerbee's OK Show.
DJ Iceman, who's an asset of the station..or shall I say a big name in the industry has left. I soo loved this radio jock, along with his co-host, DJ Rod Rodriguez. Their show was like a meal for me..a very sumptuous dinner meal, I should say. Not only me, but also my ditse. It has been part of our daily lives, our stress booster and company on every lazy nights. On DJ Iceman's last night..we really went at the booth and bid this great guy a goodbye. [or 'bad'bye? coz we're like cryin there as he had his last words.]
Sad to say it has to end. :c

Misery #2 is my never-ending heart problem.
I had this friend of mine..whose been soo soo special to me. I treated him as VIP in my life. I thought we have a connection [a friendly one]. I thought we share the same anxieties and happiness in life coz i thought again that we are what they call..'bestfriends'. yeah we call each other as one but that's so yesterday. Things aren't the same now. We have done so much, we have croossed the border lines. And I think it is the reason why our 'friendship' is about to end. [or ended? :c]

watever. watever. watever!!!!!
conclusion: IT HURTS SO MUCH.

"do you know? do you know? do you know? do ya?"

traitors and loyalists*

2007-08-09T05:46:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS.

how do we know if they're true?

how do we know if they're faithful?

how do we know if they wont leave us?

will they betray us?

will they comfort us thru down moments?

will they take no advantage of us?

uGh. it sux to know that in today's time, its soo damn hard to find atleast one, reaL, true, dropdead nice friend. u may find sum, but they leave just as fast as u have found them.

too bad, ayt? but that's reality. heck.

this past few days, many things happened between me and my friends. guy friends..most especially.

there are some who were untrue, who were soo selfish;

i call them friends with benefits..yaaah. i think soo.

they are just there when they need something--specifically material thinGs. xit. its wut i rily super doooper uber hate!!! but if u need them, they'll be busy. they'll leave you hangin.

uve been oh.sOo.gOod with these persons but for all you know,

you became friends because you have this, you have that.

blah,blah,bLah. craP!stinks!sucKs.

but ofcourse, GOD is soo good. sUuper good. HE sends angels.

you may not realize it at first, but hey!try to think of your friends now.

whose been helping you lately?

whose been with you thru ups and downs?

got oNe? keep holdin. tighten ur grip.

dont lose such precious people.

be loyal to them as they are to you.

they spice up your life, they can add strength to your weaknesses, they lighten up your day,

always there for you in wutever emotion you have..with shoulders broad enough for you to cry on, and arms wide open, ready to give that soothing hug! =')

now i tell you. be careful in dealing with people whom you call friends.

look aroUnd. ~.~

:c

2007-08-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly..
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthemOf our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never..
Never have before

silent tears.

2007-08-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

silence covered the room

lying on my bed

scruples doomed

tears poured on my face

i was at a loss. all-emptied.

thoughts of him circled within

he's still the one i love,

the reason for every feeling.

i wanna be with you again

sit beside you and hug you tight.

i want to hear your voice,

feel your touch and soothing words

but this will never happen

you need not to know

i was stabbed..

you killed me when you gave up. :c

kwentong tsokolate. bow.

2007-07-29T17:55:00.001-07:00

naa koy 3 ka chocolates...

nangayo ka ug 2..

pila man nabilin??

.........

3 japon.
haha. :D

wa man tka tagai!
bleh! =P

the art of OSHASHA. :)

2007-03-19T05:07:00.001-07:00

The newest martial arts craze to hit the town?!?? Imported from Kobe, Japan??!Hahaha! No, no, no! The Art of Oshasha is purely Pinoy (and purely the creation of neurotic minds like mine). Although thinking about it, it may have some roots in Japan's practice of Zen. Oshasha simply means.... Letting Go. Bwahahahaha. O ano, gets mo na? From Bratty "BOO!" to LetGo-LetGod "Oshasha". Clap-clap-clap... Do I smell maturity?? hehehe

So what is "Oshasha"? Oshasha leads you to blissful tralalalas. Happiness over the silliest things, and enjoyment of the finer things in life (OKay. not quite). But practice the art of Oshasha, and you will find yourself easily pleased, and you'll discover a happier, more content, and more fulfilled YOU.

However, it is crucial to practice Oshasha only when the time is right. Discernment and introspection is highly necessary. Oshasha does not work if you are half-hearted about it. Oshasha must be seen ONLY as your reserve bullet, your final push to the finish line, your last ounce of strength. If practiced otherwise, Oshasha is unlikely to work, and you might end up disappointing yourself. Oshasha too soon and you might live a life of regret. So when should you resort to Oshasha? Only when you have exhausted all other means (without losing your dignity, please.)

Saying "Oshasha" is accepting that you no longer have control over the situation. You accept that there are greater powers over you. You realize that sometimes, trying to fix the situation can do more damage than good. And so you say "oshasha", either out loud or to yourself, and leave it all up to fate. No pointing fingers, no one else to blame. Just pure acceptance of the things that you cannot change. Taking responsibility over your actions, and being content with the way things are. Oshasha.

After a long and emotional conversation, you say Oshasha, mark it as the end of the day and retreat to bed. Then look forward to a new day.
After crying your heart and eyes out, just say Oshasha, let it all go, and move on.

But remember, don't confuse Oshasha with saying "yes". It is not a passive submission to what you cannot control. More than that, it is ACCEPTANCE. Accepting the past, being happy about it and the way things are, and looking forward to the future.

And when you accept the way things are, and see the beauty in what you already have, you learn to appreciate more, and you end up a happier person. When you're happier, others are also happy to be around you. And then you attract good things, and that makes you even happier. The Art of Oshasha. Simple as that.

OVERmessaging

2007-03-12T19:39:00.000-07:00

I really do..ultimately..super..soo..very.. hate floods and chain messages.
For me they are both wastes.
Many friendster/myspace users do; especially on the bulletin board section. It soo irritates me whenever I receive lots of 'em. I have to go through those nonsense posts whenever I check the board for some more interesting and useful posts from friends-which really wastes a lot of my time. urgh!

And in chatboxes and tagboards too! I always hang-out on the killerbee site. Usually, I leave some messages or song request on their shoutbox and usually it ends up being unread by the djs. Well aside from the growing number of users, some do flooding! not again!..

Ofcourse, as most people do- txtmessaging.
Chain messages are rampant here, mostly to scare people, forcing you to send the text to the required number of persons and if not you will suffer for blah blah blah years. duh. But what irritates me most is if it talks about GOD and family/loveones. Either your loveone will die or God will curse you if you'll not forward or do what the chain says in 5,10,20 minutes or hours or whatever. More so if you'd delete it. Sadly, many of us put themselves in a hurry or take this as a 'must'. I don't care if your registered to unlimited texting but guys, that's just wasting your precious time. Don't you have faith in God? No matter how big or how many mistakes you have done over the past few days, not a chain message will curse/suffer you from anything. And I believe, people who do flooding just want some attention. If you always do "send to groups" messaging, why not say 'take care', or 'love u!'? I mean why not brighten someone's day thru these communicative tools? It'll much be appreciated. helps a lot, you know. And most of all, TIME'S NOT WASTED. Just a friendly reminder from me..=)

20 UNSUSPECTED causes of headache

2007-03-12T01:13:00.000-07:00

from the book Everyday Health Hints
1. the gnasher headache
nocturnal grinding and clenching of teeth can leave you feeling as though your head is in a vise. calcium supplements and relaxation techniques solve the problem.
2. the cocktail headache
depends on how sensitive you are to toxins. try a cold shower to constrict the swollen, aching blood vessels in your head.
3. the premenstrual headache
ugh..this is common to us, girls. take vitamin B6.
4.the caffeine headache
cut back gradually on caffeine to avoid this problem. [well..for a coffee-freak like me, this is a no, no.]
5. the hotdog headache
food additives called nitrates and nitrites found in hotdogs and luncheon meats cause this headache. read the labels and buy meat that are free of these chemicals.
6. the ice cream headache.
cold foods can overstimulate the nerves in the roof of the mouth, causing headache. eat and sip slowly and you won't suffer.
7. the salt headache
migraines sometimes occur several hours after a person eats a salty meat. try withholding salt from your diet to see if you're susceptible. if you are, season with herbs as you gradually cut back on your salt intake.
8. the hunger headache
avoid this type of between-meal headache by eating frequent smaller meals and snacks. choose high-protein foods and fresh fruits.
9. the turtle headache
when you pull your head under the covers to sleep like a turtle, you don't get enough oxygen. the result: headache. the cure: fresh air, above the blanket.
10. the sun headache
too much sun can deplete the fluids around the brain, causing headache. avoid 11am-2pm sun, or wear a hat. if you still get a headache, replace the lost fluids slowly with a warm drinks.
11. the weather headache
a swedish study found that certain people tend to suffer headaches just prior to windy weather. ofcourse, you can't change Mother Nature, but you can limit other factors, like stress and alcohol.
12. the mobile home headache
mobile homes are often built with materials that release high levels of formaldehyde into the air, causing headaches. the best remedy: move, and buy a home that is over 4yrs. old, the amount of time it takes for formaldehyde to dissipate.
13. the jet-set headache
the antioxidants vitamins E and C and selenium and bioflavanoids may help retrieve altitude problems.
14. the slumber party headache
caused by staying up late and sleeping late when you aren't used to such behavior. the cure: an inviting mattress.
15. the spike heel headache
this fashionable headache happens when high heels force the back muscles to tense to keep the body erect. low heels will solve the problem.
16. the expressway headache
this type is similar to turtle headache, but the carbon monoxide comes from rush-hour traffic. try to adjust your schedule to avoid the pack.
17. the art gallery headache
not caused by bad art but by the fatigue brought on by a day spent touring every gallery and museum in town. minimalist approach recommended for future outings.
18. the chinese food headache
symptoms: throbbing and pressure over the temples and in a band across the forehead.
cause: monosodium glutamate (msg), a "flavor-enhancer" frequently used in chinese restaurants.
solution: tell the waiter to tell the chef to leave out the msg.
19. the snow shoveler's headache
this is obviously not applicable here in the Philippines, but anyway, the cure for this uncustomary exercise is to warm up slowly.
20. the hat and goggle headache
too much pressure on your forehead and eye sockets can be a real pain. make sure your swimming goggles are padded: on dry land, don't try to reshape your head with a tight-fitting cap, even if its the fashionable item for this season.

must have expect the unexpected..these are all facts guys...a bit useful..=)

mY enchAntress

2007-03-07T01:30:00.000-08:00

We've all got hidden magic inside us. How do you use yours?

Nooo. I'm not gonna talk about magic, witchcrafts, tales or some sort. I just had some "enchanted" thoughts this morning. I was searching for my notepad in the drawer, and this teen mag October ish caught my attention. I've read that volume but since I wasn't in a hurry, I flipped through the pages and again, answered the quiz section entitled, "Who's your inner enchantress?"

In literature and psychology, how we behave can be better understood (or even practiced) by using archetypes- characters or personalities that represent modes of thought and behavior. Cinderella is sweet and nice, but can't seem to escape from her stepmother's shadow. Hermione is spunky and smart, but can't seem to compromise. Am I a true-blue princess, fairy, mermaid or witch?

After tallying my points, I found my enchantress as the FAIRY.
Hmmmm..
the fairy. Gifted with wings, fairies love giving in to their curiosity. They're
always out exploring and learning new things. They're driven to do things nobody
has done and go place no one has ever been. You may not have your own set of
wings, but that's not going to keep you from trying to fly. You're never afraid to
do something new, whether that means going for sandals when you're so used to
sneaks, reading Nabokov after finishing Neruda, or listening to Hilary Duff when
you love U2. In your quest to find the next new thing, don't fall into the fickle and
flightly trap. Remember that sometimes, it's okay to stick to the same old thing.

Well.. as the article says, I'm really, really fond of exploring ideas, places, meeting people, goin out, have adventure, try something new and fun! ^.^ And yes at times, that "always on the go" trait of mine leads me to mistakes. Not thinking of the consequences beforehand, you know. But as I recall my past, every experience I had, whether it be good or bad, I cherish it coz I learned many things. Like a fairy, I take each day as a quest, with wings soaring high and wands waving with hopes. =)

failed!

2007-02-25T20:54:00.000-08:00

Flowers. Notes. Chocolates. Dinner date. Gifts. Ty bear. I expected to have any of these things/stuff last Vday. And yes I had! I got a rose, notes, greetings here and there, and my most wanted ty bear from Mcdonalds! weeepeeh!^^ My day was very great. I had a good mood, people are so nice, everything's so sweet. I must have been so happy ryt? But damn not- I wasn't- just about 70-30 of happiness. How my day turned out to be so bright just equalled how blue I was that night. That big :-D on my face was replaced with a :-( when a thought entered my mind, "Hey, where is he? I thought we'll gonna see each other tonight[as what he said?] Its past dinner time and yet he hasn't called me." I was so eager to see him. I love being with him- fooling around, chit-chat, dota?haha, just bond. He was super cool and real fun to be with. His jokes, the humurous, senseless talks, you just can't help but smile. =). sigh. Minutes had passed...still sitting in some old building..wondering, patiently waiting, glancing at people..looking around..to the left..to the left, everything ya own in the box to the left, in the closet, that's my stuff..oOops! voila! There he was, standing in front of me!=D. Of course, I was soo happy and relieved. He even teased me saying I looked great and sexy. I don't mind if he did mean it or he was just tryin to make me smile but heck, he's there, I'm with him, and that's all I care. Yes he's there, he came but- he showed up to tell me he can't go with me. OMG. OMG. I was used to forcing him but at that moment, I just can't. I dunno why. Something has changed. I was hesitant to please/demand like before. To make matters worse, I had just refused 3 invitations, thinking Im gonna spend lotsa time with him that night. I EXPECTED SO MUCH, YET I FAILED. I left him, walking so fast and holding back the tears that I then knew would fall. A ring on my phone helped it- a friend inviting me to go out and so I found myself at the Autoshop[Ate Molit was there too!We're really cousins.haha]. I danced till I drop. I didn't drink! swear.^^. I met guys, cool people who entertained me so much. Classmates and old friends were there too; even the guy whom I refused to go with!whooah. Well, i enjoyed it anyway. I really had fun but when we got home and was about to sleep, tears just kept on pouring. Like what they say, you can never just walk up to a boy and tell him to feel the same way as you do. You have to wait for him to do it in his own way and in his own time. I could've followed Dj Ainee's advice not to have high expectations- and could've not had myself hurt. =(