countdown to SEMBREAK.

Its exactly 10days to go before our much awaited and anticipated SEMBREAK!! yey! yey! giggles*

I can't wait to have my rest. laag2 galore and stuff. Il be at my hometown the whooooole month. Gawd..i don't wanna be stuck there again..id just would like to have uhmmmm...1 and a half week of vacation there. But i have no choice at all. My parents won't allow me to go here in Davao before classes start. heck!

Anyway..much of that blabbering. The thing is..schooldays are out...break's fast approaching! weeeeeeeeh^^

the ping pong song

"do you know what it feels like..luvin someone that's in a rush to throw you away?"

hmmmm. it's soo hurtin..ayt?
This song distracts me so much. Its bothering me for like days now. It speaks of GOODBYEs; which I, really HATE. There are a lot of changes in my daily routine right now that I still can't accept. I haven't moved on yet. And it's soo hard for me. It's killing me each and every second of the day.

First is the end of the Killerbee's OK Show.
DJ Iceman, who's an asset of the station..or shall I say a big name in the industry has left. I soo loved this radio jock, along with his co-host, DJ Rod Rodriguez. Their show was like a meal for me..a very sumptuous dinner meal, I should say. Not only me, but also my ditse. It has been part of our daily lives, our stress booster and company on every lazy nights. On DJ Iceman's last night..we really went at the booth and bid this great guy a goodbye. [or 'bad'bye? coz we're like cryin there as he had his last words.]
Sad to say it has to end. :c

Misery #2 is my never-ending heart problem.
I had this friend of mine..whose been soo soo special to me. I treated him as VIP in my life. I thought we have a connection [a friendly one]. I thought we share the same anxieties and happiness in life coz i thought again that we are what they call..'bestfriends'. yeah we call each other as one but that's so yesterday. Things aren't the same now. We have done so much, we have croossed the border lines. And I think it is the reason why our 'friendship' is about to end. [or ended? :c]

watever. watever. watever!!!!!
conclusion: IT HURTS SO MUCH.

"do you know? do you know? do you know? do ya?"

traitors and loyalists*

FRIENDS.

how do we know if they're true?

how do we know if they're faithful?

how do we know if they wont leave us?

will they betray us?

will they comfort us thru down moments?

will they take no advantage of us?

uGh. it sux to know that in today's time, its soo damn hard to find atleast one, reaL, true, dropdead nice friend. u may find sum, but they leave just as fast as u have found them.

too bad, ayt? but that's reality. heck.

this past few days, many things happened between me and my friends. guy friends..most especially.

there are some who were untrue, who were soo selfish;

i call them friends with benefits..yaaah. i think soo.

they are just there when they need something--specifically material thinGs. xit. its wut i rily super doooper uber hate!!! but if u need them, they'll be busy. they'll leave you hangin.

uve been oh.sOo.gOod with these persons but for all you know,

you became friends because you have this, you have that.

blah,blah,bLah. craP!stinks!sucKs.

but ofcourse, GOD is soo good. sUuper good. HE sends angels.

you may not realize it at first, but hey!try to think of your friends now.

whose been helping you lately?

whose been with you thru ups and downs?

got oNe? keep holdin. tighten ur grip.

dont lose such precious people.

be loyal to them as they are to you.

they spice up your life, they can add strength to your weaknesses, they lighten up your day,

always there for you in wutever emotion you have..with shoulders broad enough for you to cry on, and arms wide open, ready to give that soothing hug! =')

now i tell you. be careful in dealing with people whom you call friends.

look aroUnd. ~.~

:c

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly..
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthemOf our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never..
Never have before

silent tears.

silence covered the room

lying on my bed

scruples doomed

tears poured on my face

i was at a loss. all-emptied.

thoughts of him circled within

he's still the one i love,

the reason for every feeling.

i wanna be with you again

sit beside you and hug you tight.

i want to hear your voice,

feel your touch and soothing words

but this will never happen

you need not to know

i was stabbed..

you killed me when you gave up. :c